words are only words.

In total, Math Rep of each class should get ready $(2N) for the math materials, where N = no. of people in your class.

how abt add in sum to infinity since the math materials are never-ending?

and so, today is try-to-squeeze-3mths-of-social-life-into-24hrs-day.

i miss life, really.

but the past couple of days, the complex emotions of dealing with death, or rather near-death has been qte real. i saw my greatgrandma lying on the hospital bed in ICU ytd. i was momentarily desensitized, maybe it was a reflex, like to shut out all feelings so that the pain will not be so unbearable. then subconsciously, my lungs seemed to contract so rapidly such that i cldnt breathe. dont know if it's the air of the hospital or the heart-wrenching feeling choking me. the feeding tube, the drip and all the other god-knows-what foreign objects on my greatgrandma's body.. as i watched her steady heartbeat represented by a red line on the screen, standing outside the transparent window with dozens of relatives speaking in hushed voices, thinking, my greatgrandma is a strong old dame. pls let her get well soon.

on a different note, my thoughts & feelings have been qte a wreck lately, little things can trigger a violent reaction. (just like acid chloride, reacting explosively with water. haha.) i'm sorry bf had to put up with so much trouble..

& i nvr seem to sleep enough.